I firstly have to admit that I am a swinger, an introvert swinger. Bashfulness is a terrible characteristic for swingers. It is the major obstacle that comes between you and swing life style. It is also the reason why I haven’t managed to try a threesome.
I have tried to step outside of my comfort zone for several times, but every time I did that, I always felt that it wasn’t myself. I would feel strange and embarrassed by my behavior. I remembered that there was one time I brave up and went to a couple. My face turned so red and I could even feel the heat on me. I introduced myself awkwardly. They looked at me and wondered what on earth was I going to do. They have absolutely no idea. I didn’t know how to express myself and my purpose. I was so afraid that they were not swinger couple and it could embarrass me. In the end, I escaped from them and leaving them speechless without knowing what was I trying to do. Since then, I was about to give up on myself. It is no big deal if I don’t get to live as a swinger. However, there was one time that I almost had a fet life before the other two bailed on me. It was such a big pity for me, but not for them. Here goes the story.
I was invited to a private party of my friend. He was trying to help me to get out of my comfort zone and challenge myself. I quitted on myself back then already. I was just here to wait for people to hit on me and maybe got a lucky night or hookup dating. Out of my expectation, there was a cute guy hitting on me in a very hard way. I liked him a lot. We really hit it off. After a while when we were about to leave and have a little private time, his friend came to him. He was cute too, just the same degree as the other guy. He showed me major attraction as well. It really surprised me. They both flirted with me and it seemed they were both entertained by it. I started to feel that I was about to have 3som maybe. A MMF threesome. How exciting!
When things got hotter, I kissed one guy and turned around and kissed the other. They liked it I could tell. Since we all live far away, we suggested that we could go to the basement. That was where we went. They undressed me and things really went very well. Suddenly, one guy laughed out very loud and then the other guy did the same too. They thought it would be strange to be with each other naked and it could possibly influence their friendship, since they were friends for a very long time. They shouldn’t risk that. I totally understand, but also a little angry. But I respected them. They said sorry and left. This was the closest threesome I ever had.